This week has been different than after the first two chemo treatments.  On Sunday I started feeling way more fatigued than I had before.  I started to worry when I felt the same way on Monday and again on Tuesday.  I was worried that maybe that was the new norm for me right now.

I felt really uplifted by all the kind comments on this site and in my email inbox, and it reminded me that I needed to be tough and positive.

By Thursday I was really dragging, but I told myself all day that I needed to do a good job with my kids, work out, and do all the things that I normally do.  By the end of the night I had done a lot, but I was very discouraged.  I just didn’t want it to be that hard every day to do normal things.  I talked to Branden about how I felt, and we talked and read from the New Testament.  I was reminded last night that even though I should be tough, I should not put it all on myself to get through this.  I can and should rely on the Savior.  He suffered for all of us and knows everything we feel.  He wants us to pray and ask for help when we are having a hard time.  I cannot do this by myself, but I can if I rely on Him.

I tried to think of Him more last night and this morning, and I pleaded for strength and energy.  Today I felt noticeably better all day.  I was so amazed and grateful for this little miracle in my life.  It is a valuable lesson for me to do my best, but to ask for more strength from on high frequently!!  I know God lives and loves each of us.  I need Him more than ever right now, and I can feel His help and love.

I have also felt His love through the love of so many friends and family members who are encouraging me each day.  Thank you!